Your life can coast along for ages, weeks, months, years, decades, most coast for lifetimes.
But then BAM!!!!!! Something shocks you to the core, you wake up and suddenly realise, fuck, I’m in the Matrix. I’ve been asleep AND you’ve done it willingly.
It’s a game, it’s an experiment. Things happen and you have to deal with them, though, of course, most don’t and most think, “Oh, that’s okay, I’m all right. I’m just going to carry on as normal.”
FINE! – Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic, Emotional (that’s a line from the Mark Wahlberg remake of The Italian Job)
Truth is, you’re not completely fine, are you?
There are absolutely things you’re struggling with.
There are absolutely things you’d love to change.
There are absolutely things you’d like to say.
But the reason I say it’s all an experiment is because you have to let go of the idea of ‘getting it right.’ There’s no right or wrong way, there is only your way. Do what you need to do and do it messily, like a child.
Basically, everything that you’re struggling with probably goes back to childhood. Whatever traumatic experience you’re hiding from recently is merely a symptom of an ingrained dynamic that goes back way longer than you think.
Throw yourself into the boiling pot. Dive in deep and get your shit sorted out.
All the good stuff, right! Better than wasting the rest of your life.